Sometimes introversion is a burden

I wish I liked spending time with people at all times. I wish I liked talking to or texting people every day, that I got energy from it and that it makes me happy. But it doesn’t. It drains every ounce of energy that I have, and leaves me feeling like a empty shell. A husk, if you will. People have always told me to keep people close at all times because that’s what makes you happy, but it couldn’t be further from the truth. I thrive in solitude, I grow when I’m alone and get to cater to my own feelings. Getting to plan my day just for me is a blessing, spending it however I wish. Being able to grocery shop without anyone really trying to talk to me helps me with having the best day ever. I wish people could understand that I don’t hate them, I just can’t handle staying in touch every single day. I don’t work like they do, I need space, and I will more than willing give them space in return. I wish I wasn’t like this, but that’s how it is. I wish I was different, but I can’t be. I don’t know how, at least.

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“Crisped + Sere” Review

29965941Crisped + Sere is the second dystopian, or post apocalyptic book written by TJ Klune. It continues the story of the protagonist Cavalo, and it’s still located in the state of Idaho, USA. If you want to read my review of the first part of this 2-part book series, click here.

In the first novel we were introduced to the Dead Rabbit named Lucas, who turned out to be the key to eliminating the leader of the Dead Rabbits, Patrick. On Lucas’ skin, parts of a map is tattooed and Patrick has the remaining coordinates and whatnot so they need to get to him. They have 21 days to come up with a plan before Patrick comes to take Lucas from them, seeing as he is his son.

Cavalo and the inhabitants of Cottonwood does everything they can to prepare for the upcoming battle, but it is on a way larger scale than they expect and they are temporarily defeated as they capture Lucas and bring him to a different location. They send a rescue mission after him which leads to the end of the novel, so I won’t talk too much about that.

The ending of the novel felt a bit dragged out for me, it could have ended a chapter before it, but it wasn’t too bad. It just didn’t add much that I cared for. There is also a sex scene or two in this one, which wasn’t too much of a bother, I just skipped over the few pages it went over. I don’t think the second novel was as gory as the first, since it was more about the large fight between the Dead Rabbits and the inhabitants of Cottonwood, so it focused more on what happened instead of isolated events.

It was a good follow up to the first and I am glad I read it, and that I got some closure. Again, if you cannot handle gory descriptions, you probably won’t enjoy this one, there’s not much but what is there is quite descriptive. I gave this 5/5 stars on Goodreads, since it’s one of the best series I have read in a while. TJ Klune is a great story teller.

Life update #2

I had a planned surgery on May 15th, and as far as I know, it went well. I’m currently spending most of my days on the couch with my feet up high, hoping the wound will heal quickly. I had to get a couple of stitches so I hope it’ll go well. Getting them removed at the end of the month so looking forward to that. I’ll probably be stuck with crutches or a light wheelchair for a long time but that’s fine with me. I just hope the wound will heal completely, I’ve had a chronic wound for almost two decades so if it goes away then that will be great.

Apart from that, I’ve actually been reading more lately! I think my love for reading got rekindled after I found a page where I could download a lot of PDF’s, so I got to explore new books and new genres. I’ve read through three books in just a few weeks so I feel really accomplished.

As for anything else, my life has been put on pause while I heal so I don’t get to do many physical things. I worked out a lot before the surgery but I can’t do that now since I can’t put any weight on my left foot. So any workout goals will have to wait.

I guess not too much has happened so there isn’t much to talk about. I’m just glad I’m finished with the surgery and I can’t wait to see how it turned out.

Building a shelf

For ages, I’ve been wanting one of those gorgeous triangular shelves that are all over pinterest, so I decided that I was going to build one myself. I had some leftover planks from my old bed, and some dark wood stain so I thought like why not make it out of that? If you’ve read my “What I do on a rainy day” post, you’ve seen these planks already. I stained them, let them dry for a few days before cutting them into equally long pieces. To make that work as a triangle, the corners need to be 30 degrees.

I got my dad to help me cut and measure, because I am super clumsy and would probably have cut my fingers off if I tried to do it myself. Originally I wanted clean corners, but the planks were too thin so they would have split in half when nailing them together. Luckily dad is experienced with building things so he made separate angles to attack the planks to. I really like how it looks. I might have to stain the corners too, but it’s not the worst look in the world with some natural wood in there. I’m just happy the shelf is functional. It’s probably a bit wonky but I love it. Most of my furniture is old anyways so it fits right in.

 

Have you built anything before?

“Withered + Sere” Review

28507063Withered + Sere is a dystopian, or post apocalyptic novel. It’s the first of two books (as far as I know) and the story takes place in Idaho, after a terrible incident. The world is now a wasteland, with nothing ‘good’ left, only people trying to survive and those called “Dead Rabbits”, cannibals and murderers.

The setting and the plot reminded me a lot of the Fallout video game series, especially since the main protagonist, or antagonist, I’m not really sure what to classify him as yet, has a dog as a companion. That’s the setting of Fallout 4 too. But this world is way more brutal, and grotesque, and the novel is full of graphic descriptions. So if you’re sensitive to gore and mutilation, for example, this is not for you. I can’t handle things like that in a visual format, but text doesn’t affect me as much. I did physically cringe at a few points but it wasn’t anything too bad.

We follow the story of a guy named Cavalo, who after some unfortunate events, ends up with one of the Dead Rabbits in his custody. There is a lot of hostility, some kisses (which just made everything feel more intense because he would be loving a cannibal??) and a lot of bitching. People don’t trust Cavalo, people don’t trust the Dead Rabbit, but the newly formed government needs him and he’s sure as heck not going to give him up. The novel kinda ends at a cliffhanger so I don’t want to reveal too much of the plot, but the Dead Rabbit is very useful.

It’s a really neat dystopian novel, bringing out the best and worst of a post apocalyptic world. The people suck, the government suck, the world sucks.. But people are trying to make the best of it and survive. As a bonus, the novel includes a sarcastic robot, which is pretty great. Reminds me a lot of Codsworth, again from Fallout 4.

If you like dystopian and post apocalyptic fiction, I’d recommend this one. I rated it 5/5 on Goodreads because it’s honestly one of the best novels I’ve read in a long time. Well worth it. I’ve already started on the second novel, Crisped + Sere, so I’m looking forward to the continuation of this.